What happens when a rubber band is stretched? It expands and the amount of stress exerted on it increases. What happens when a rubber band is stretched to its limit? It snaps. And that’s exactly how I feel right now.
Don’t ask me why I feel stressful. I have no idea why. You might point out that my life isn’t miserable at all. Some other people are having a much harder time than me yet they are perfectly fine and happy. Am I less competent? Was I pampered to a stage where I cry over an ant’s bite? I beg to differ. Everyone’s limit to stress is different and no one can actually compare with another because no one knows best except the person himself.
I felt I wasn’t mentally healthy where much unhappiness has slowly accumulated inside of me over a long period of time. To make others feel less guilty of whatever they did to me, I bear with it to maintain peace. I felt the need to bottle things inside because I had no choice. I was taught to respect people and that meant to suffer within. I avoid confrontations, awkwardness and fights. I lost my voice. My mind starts to clutter and before I know it, it’s too much.
So, I have decided to make calls to declutter. Everything that I do, I’ll ask myself “Am I happy? Will I be happy?”. Sometimes, it’s not an easy call. The struggles of deciding to opt out may very well be as stressful, if not more. But I need some alone time and my own space.
I’m NOT emo. One is not weak when a load gets heavy, it only meant training is due and something is to be done. If I have the money to do so, I would have taken a vacation to get away from all the crap. But with a house to think about, reality forces me to think twice about healing my soul. No bank can wait for me to nurse myself back to health.
Enough of my rambling and to get on sharing what happened last week. Nothing exciting happened because I have opted out quite a number of events that should have happened. But nonetheless, here’s what I captured.
I attended the launch of a new collection from Makeup Store. And to be honest, I didn’t exactly enjoyed myself that much. The place was at a gallery and was just like a sauna with the spotlights. From where we were standing, our view of the stage was blocked and the sound system was echo-y. The best part was just that we were able to play around with the cosmetics products. I can’t wait to have some on my hands!
During the weekends, I headed to Paragon and attended a casual launch of Balmain’s latest fragrance, Extatic. I wasn’t expecting much since my nose is very picky about scents. However, I fell in love with it immediately! The merge of fruity, floral and musk makes a perfect combination and I cannot wait to feature it soon.
Moving on to food, nope I’m not done trying out new ways of incorporating healthy cooking into my life. I purchased pita bread and 100% All Natural Peanut Butter and made myself this delicious banana peanut butter pita bread as breakfast. It was delicious and very filling, I could only finished half of it!
With the rest of the pita bread, I tried making myself some Pita Bread Pizza! Basically the pita bread acts as the dough/base and I placed whatever toppings I desire on top of it. Last ingredients to include is of course the cheese and bake it in the oven till the cheese is gooey and crusty. It was SUPER DELICIOUS, much healthier and more satisfying than frozen pizzas.